There's beauty in the breakdown

drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like
--Let Go, by Frou Frou

Hey people,

So I'm having a depressed day.

I'm sick (a little), and physically and mentally exhausted. A lot of people are really driving me insane for no reason, and I don't know what to do about it. I feel like I'm being short with people when they don't deserve it. Then again, maybe they do.

School sucks. I have no energy to do well in my classes, but I really need to do well to get into another program next fall. Hopefully I wake up and listen to myself. I think I can pull it together by exam time.

I almost feel like I'm living the life that wasn't supposed to be mine. I enjoy my friends and my self, but a lot of the rest seems to be messed up.

My family is a horrible mess, and I feel like giving up on them. But I miss my Nana and my kitty, Sheba. I think I might go to Memorial University next year, in St. John's, NFLD. Have a new start. But then I'd be leaving any chance of reconnection with my family, as well as leaving terrific friends behind.

Whatever.

--Jam

PS - I realize this email was all over the place, but I also realize that I don't care that it was all over the place.