The Week When Everyone Went Insane

Alright. To all my readers who do not know the circumstances at Summers Castle concerning me, here's a reading list to keep you up-to-date:

1. Read this first.
2. Then this, but not the comments yet.
3. Then this.
4. Go back to this, and read the comments.
5. Finally, read this.

That should take you about half an hour lol (have fun!).

So now that you know what's going on, and you've read everything that I asked (if you haven't, you won't know what's going on). You'll note that there are some attacks on me in a couple of these posts, and that is what I am going to talk on today.

First, I'd like to talk about communication for a moment. Before computers, people talked in person. It's an interesting concept, but try to visualize it for a second. Neat, huh?

I do not, in any way, think that a blog is the place for a personal attack, but what do I know. I think a blog is a place for venting to others about problems in your life, but NOT a way to tell others what you think of them. It's rude. In my opinion, there is a difference between venting about a problem with a person and venting about a person, especially using names and expecting the person to read it. That is not the way people should communicate because when speaking in person, things are held back; when online, things are not, and that can be very harsh.

But, I digress. In the debates that were occurring on At's Blog, I joined in to try to help everyone out, but was shocked and disgusted when I was attacked on a personal level. Disgusted is used lightly. I was shocked that a friend of mine who supposedly "learned more from [me] than [I] probably know" would attack me on a level that was irreparable. The attack was due to a severe lack of communication on his part, and an apparent amount of rudeness on mine, which I don't believe is true, but whatever.

So once I read that wonderful attack, I wake up today to find one of my closest friends in the entire world has hopped on the strange venting-attack bandwagon. She was much more concerned rather than angry, and I take her opinions more seriously, of course. However, I am just as shocked as I was reading the other attack yesterday.

My question is.. what are people thinking!? What is this blog redemption that is occurring? Do people think it will do any good?

I am extremely confused and hurt by the entire process that has taken place.

First of all, in response to the "worrier", I am so baffled by you. I understand you are worried, but first of all, the fact that you don't even know where I am going to university in the fall shows me that you don't know the entire story as it stands, and that makes me angry. Angry that you would be worried over something that you really haven't talked to me about, so the worry is unfounded. I'm surprised that you don't care if I came back to Brock, but again, whatever.

The next thing that bothers me is my "prestigious" ideas. I post my ideas on my blog because it's my journal, and let's not forget that. I post them to get feedback on each individual idea, not on the entire batch of them being put down by being called "prestigious", a word I now dislike.

I aim high because in order to have a high return rate for success, you need to aim high. I'm not going to make small goals and hope that somehow they give me the success I desire, because that is highly unlikely. Do you think Donald Trump or Jennifer Lopez aimed low and somehow just made it to the top? No. I understand your worry, but there is a reason I was given the talents I have. I'm self-confident for a reason. If I aimed low and achieved something I was unhappy with, I wouldn't be happy, and would throw myself off a bridge. You should know that, as you know who I am, but nevertheless, I understand your concern.

Now, I could have looked at this post as a genuine concern if it hadn't been for one phrase. One phrase I despise and loathe.

"I feel like you're running from problems."

You feel like I'm running from problems. Interesting. What problems would those be?

You posted this in the part about me leaving Brock. So me staying at Brock would solve the "problem"? In my opinion, my "problem" was me flunking out of school. So in order to fix the "problem", I need to go back to school, no? Why on EARTH would I go back to Brock when all my friends will be done far ahead of me? Why would I go back there when I can travel somewhere new, exciting, and HALF THE COST? Did you know I have reasons for going to Newfoundland, not Nova Scotia? Apparantly no, you didn't, unless you thought my "problems" that I'm running away from were something else?

The only other thing I can think of is my family. My family is fine without me, and have all made that very clear. One of the people I am closest to in my entire family is my Aunt Leigh, in Newfoundland. Why not try to get close to someone in my family if I can, rather than trying to fix my "problem" with my Dad and the rest of the morons?

Anyways, I'm done defending myself. I understand you're concerned, but I'm very disappointed that you didn't talk it out with me if you were.

I would never ever doubt your decisions in your career or your life, unless you were not living up to your potential. The ONLY concern you should have for me is that I'm not living up to my potential, which I'm not, but I'm starting to figure out how I can and am moving in that direction.

Do I hate you for blogging about me, as you so kept reitterating? Of course not. But, I am very disappointed and annoyed.

So, past all of this, I thought that I might close Jam's Blog. If this is what blogs are now going to be used for, I want NO part of it. It's stupid and counter-productive. But as you all know, I don't throw in towels. This is my space that I use for me. I don't do this for others, but I enjoy having a small community of friends and random girls from the US (lol Liz that's for you) that give me feedback.

The last thing I want to say is communication is not always a good thing. I think it would be very beneficial if we didn't bottle things up, because that obviously turns out badly, but there are some things that simply do not need to be said. I think the male part of Summers Castle has gotten everyone worked up, and everyone just now wants to vent. If we all spoke our minds, however, none of us would like one another. We all have things we dislike in others, but why bother telling them? What good will that do?

All I have ever been to anyone is honest and I have always said what was on my mind, besides those points that don't need to be said. I think it's interesting that I am the one who is being centered out (along with Athena.. holla!) in these posts that are due to a lack of honesty, when we are the two most honest people alive lol. (See, now that is ironic.)

So, my friends who have not yet had a crazy venting session, and even those who have, talk to me in person if you have a problem with my decisions or actions, because I will not deal with this again. Unless I am further aimed at, I will not be posting on this subject because I'm sick and tired of it. Life is too short to deal with this crap as if it means the world, because in the long-run, it doesn't.

--Jam

PS: I just read a part that I missed before, somehow.

"Go ahead and hate me for thinking like this. I really don't care at this point."

You don't care if I hate you? That's a little strange, because I would definitely care if you hated me. Maybe I should be talking to you about your problems rather than you talking to me about mine, because now I am very worried and upset for your well-being.

That's Something

I've had a strange epiphany. It's been presenting itself to me over the last month or so, and frankly, it's a great thing to realize.

I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm really meant to make it. That sounds horribly pretentious, but I think it's true. I have something in me that's strong, creative, and forceful. I've always been able to lead and direct people, and my ideas for a company and my future are finally starting to make sense.

I've been through tribulations that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy, but all they have done is make me stronger, more confident, and an overall better person. I'm not saying I'm a nicer or better person than other people I know by any means. I'm just saying I have "it" in me, whatever "it" is. I think people agree that I have it, too.

LOL This is the most full of myself I've ever been, but it's nice to have this strange excess of self-confidence. Now let's just hope I do make it, after all this ego-talk.

--Jam

Why Life Is Boring

1. I work in data entry.

2. To change up life, I want to work in a bank.

3. The amount of people I hang out with in Hamilton I can count on one hand.

4. The amount of guys I've dated since I've been in Hamilton I can count on my arm (which means none, duh).

5. Heidi only posts in her crazy Lineage journal. I tried reading it, but it's boring and confusing, even though I was mentioned in it, which was amusing lol.

6. Athena doesn't post.. like.. ever.

7. Stephanie posts less than that.

8. I care whether or not people post in their journals because it's new and exciting.

9. Sneezing has become fun.

10. I talk to Romeo, and myself, far more than I should.

11. While I'm writing, I realize that some of these aren't reasons I'm bored, but are actually things that are happening because I'm so bored.

12. My old highschool is starting to get rid of teachers that I loved visiting.

13. I visit my old highschool.

14. I've almost beaten the entire game Chrono Trigger in three days.

15. K2XLgames.com has disappeared. *tear*

16. I have way too much free time.

I could go on, but it's depressing lol. I'm hungry.

--Jam

Commercialization is Great

Just watch this and my title to this post will make way more sense.

Now that you've watched it.. holy CRAP.

Amazing.

--Jam is amazed.

PS: If anyone knows what song this is, pleeeease tell me, cause me love.

Let Me Wash Away

Evenin, gooberheads.

I wonder what the origin of the word "goober" is? *ponders*

Anywho, not much goin' on these days. Took a day off sick from work today, definitely giving my notice tomorrow because I'm dreading going into work everyday now. I'm actually excited to leave and find something new. The stress of finding a new job has completely left, thanks to good ol' fashioned stress relief.

I finally saw Heights, my most anticipated movie of the year, and I was no disappointed one bit. An amazing independent film with a great cast, this film is definitely one to pick up. Check out the trailer in my side bar.

Well anywho, yeah.

Oh, one more thing. Everyone who has a blog should use it. No one updates anymore and it makes Jam disgruntled.

--Disgruntled Jam

Absolute Bullhonkey

Read this.

Now that you've read it, here's my thoughts:

HOLY CRAP! That is so ridiculous that I could vom.

First of all, who cares? Why would a person who has HIV be sleeping around anyways? Why wouldn't they be wearing a condom? Why aren't people wearing condoms in the first place? Why, why, why?

Secondly, AIDS is transferred in sexual intercourse, period. Why on earth would someone say "oh, you don't have a foreskin, so maybe I won't catch your deadly disease." Sheer stupidity.

Thirldy, after all the efforts to get the gay community to stop having unprotected and random sexual encounters, why are they now posting this article front-and-center on gay.com, one of the largest gay online websites on the planet? This article practically promotes unprotected sex, which is obviously very stupid.

Next month they'll have an article saying the statistics of gay men reading articles and believing their crap outweigh the numbers of intelligent gay men with factual and rational opinions 10-1.

Morons.

--Jam

300 and Still Annoyed

Well howdy!

So it's been three hundred posts? Holy craaaaap. I'm going to do a big retrospective lookback in a couple of days, but for now, this is just a regular ol' post, with me bitchin' about things like I normally do.

First off, I'm sitting here at work, doing absolutely nothing. I've done a total of twenty minutes of work today. They're paying me to sit here, because some computer is down and that means my work is down, or something. Whatever the reason, I'm still bored, and I'm gonna ask to go home soon. Sleep is better than money, I say.

I still haven't quit. I have my resignation in my coat, so I'm just waiting for the right time. When the time is right, I'll know. I'm excited to look for a new job and find something a little more riveting (like watching paint dry). Yay steps in the right direction! Yaaaaaaaaaaaams!

Secondly, and I may do a whole rant on this because it bothers me so much, I am sick and tired of people writing in their MSN names that they miss their snookie-ookums. You lovey-dovey idiots are gonna pay for my new computer, cause I'm gonna vom all over this one. It is just unnecessary to write that you miss them or that you *heart* them or whatever! They will not be sad if you don't write that in your online username, you silly gooberheads! Do you think that the rest of us really care? It's not that we don't want you to be in love or to miss the guy/girl, or whatever, but I mean if we know anything about you, then we know that you love the moron, so stop posting about it! AAAAAAAH!

*ahem*

Tomorrow I'm headed to Brantford to get some letters of reference to apply to Memorial, and Saturday I'm going out to Embassy with Tom and Sarah, so it should be an eventful weekend, if nothing else. I have to cook an entrée for our dinner parties on Sunday, which sucks ass, because I have no ideas. I might do fish, but then again, I might do VOMMING ABOUT LOVE ON MSN.

lol... yeah, I'm gonna do a full-fledged rant soon.

--Jam asks "is fledged a word?"

Coming soon:
- 300-post extravaganza!
- rant about love online
- WoW info, for those of you who think WoW is the word "wow" with capital letters placed on the w's for no reason
- holiday preparations
- top TV shows of all time
- and much more! *gasps*

Just Click It

Hilarious!

Click it, or I'll cry.

Next post is 300!

--Jam

Happy!

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

--Jam

Waiting for the Mountain

Evenin', you.

So I had an urge to watch the trailer for Brokeback Mountain again and I am so excited for that movie I could just puke. It needs to be December 9th now. Maybe I can take sleeping pills until then so it gets here quicker. *ponders*

Under further investigation of the film, I came across the name Anna Faris as a supporting character. She's one of my all-time favourite actresses (see Lost in Translation or the Scary Movie series), so that just adds to the amazing cast that is pulling me to this film, amongst other things.

OH MY GOD, Heath Ledger is too hot. It makes my brain implode. I need to go to bed so I can have good dreams about cowboys.

--Jam and the Sandman

Slalom

Afternoon cool cats!

So just about to take my lunch at work and coming to the conclusion that it's really time for me to quit. I screwed a bunch of stuff up in the last two days and I feel really crappy, and I think it would be better for the company if they got in someone that was more suited for data entry. At the same time, I'm not getting enough hours here, so it works both ways. I think I'll give my notice in the next few days and give them til the following Friday until I leave, because I don't wanna be a horrible person and leave right away lol.

Barbados is coming up fast and I'm getting reeeeally excited. I've got it almost all paid off which is a big sigh of relief. I can't wait to go somewhere tropical because the most south I've ever been, I am right now.

I'm applying to MUN (Memorial University of Newfoundland) this month. I'm a "mature student" already out there, so it should be easier to get in *fingers crossed*. I'm getting letters of reference from my amazing boss at The Bay, Edith, as well as I'm going to ask Mrs. L-P from PJC and the receptionist that I worked alongside at StoreImage last year, Linda. I should be able to get in, and since that's my first choice, I really hope I do. My second choice is UBC, but it will be more difficult to get into, and will be more expensive by far. MUN is the cheapest university in the country (2600 for one year of tuition, 2600 for one year of residence), whereas UBC is in Vancouver, and it's a huge well-known university, so much bigger bucks are necessary.

Anywho, I'm off to buy some crap. Ta!

--Jam laughs at the word "ta"

Listen to: Gimme Gimme Gimme by Abba.

Un-freaking-believable

So I read a post on Heidi's blog that talked about her birthday and what you're like determined by that date. I figured it wouldn't be accurate, but it really kinda was. I decided to try it and prove that it wouldn't work for more than one person, because it has to just be random, but look:

Your Birthdate: October 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy. Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas. Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges. Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom Your power color: Tangerine Your power symbol: Ace Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Me, down to a tee.

Unfreakingbelievable.

--Jam is scared of the twilight zone.

Morning Tea

Mornin!

*yawn* I'm sleepy.. my computer woke me up in the middle of the night. It turned off on its own, and when my compy turns off, the printer makes a noise. So I hear this at 2am and I'm like wtf... my room is officially haunted! Maybe I caught Summers Castle's ghost (Edith? Ethel? What was its name... Agatha?) like you catch a cold.

Nanowrimo is officially the most difficult thing to do on earth. I try to sit down and write, but as Athena says, "writing can't be forced". I don't know if that's exactly how she puts it, but I thought I'd use li'l quotes anyways. 1667 words per day is astronomical.. that's like one essay per day for an entire month! How do people actually beat it? They must have no distractions and no life and then they can write crap and not care that it's crap. As soon as I wrote my bad chapter, I got all discouraged and fell behind. Boooooourns. I might try to catch up or I might not. We'll see.

This weekend I think I'm filming my VJ tape! I'm uber UBER excited! Natalie's gonna be in it, and Dust is filming it, and for one part I'm dressing up as a goth, so.. yay!

Well, I should get ready for work.

Boorah.

--Jamhead

Mens' Washroom Facts

It's all SO TRUE!

For you girls, this cartoon could be valuable information on what us men have to go through everytime we use a public washroom.

--Jam

I'm a Sexy Brad Pitt Stealer!

I knew it.

You scored as Lara Croft. A thrill-seeking, slightly unscrupulous, tough-as-nails archaeologist, Lara Croft travels the world in search of ancient relics perhaps better left hidden. She packs two Colt .45s and has no fear of jumping off buildings, exploring creepy tombs, or taking on evil meglomaniacs bent on world domination. Captain Jack Sparrow 75% Lara Croft 75% Indiana Jones 46% The Amazing Spider-Man 46% Neo, the "One" 46% James Bond, Agent 007 42% El Zorro 42% The Terminator 33% William Wallace 29% Batman, the Dark Knight 29% Maximus 17% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com

I had to do a tie-breaker. If I had chosen rum and a beach over tight-fitting clothes, I would have been a crazy pirate. Unfortunately my tight clothes make the Jam sexy, so I figured some guy who liked my tight clothes would buy me rum and a beach anyways. So Lara I am.

--Jam Raider

Procrast-a-Nation

That's where I live. It's a really nice place, everyone's very friendly...

Holy Jebus, I'm so far behind on my novel I could puke AND cry! I was so determined to beat that 50,000 mark for November, and now I'm almost 10,000 words behind! Good gravy Batman!

The reason I sort of stopped is because I really didn't like the last chapter I wrote. It was small and poorly worded, and blaaaaah. So I think I'll just keep going like it never happened lol.

I'm gonna do it!

On a side note, I found a huge bunch of Canadian Idol songs on Limewire, so I'm going all crazay! Can't wait 'til Suzi, Casey, or Rex come out with an album!

Hmm.. uneventful post, but a post nonetheless. Why aren't other people posting anymore? Yeeeesh, come on people! Blogging is obviously fun!

--Jam, obviously

And Under Control

Hey ma peeps.

So in talking to friends and about friends and all that, I've realized that wow, I've really changed, and so have they. It's a discouraging fact, but a realistic one. People change. I never really thought I'd grow apart or differently than some people, but it's happening.

I can't wait to move away. A new beginning is what I need. I won't come back once I leave, except to visit my old life. I feel like I'm one of those angels from Touched By An Angel, who meet a lot of different people and help them out and move on. I think people really benefit from having me around, but I don't always benefit in the reverse effect. I need to move on for me, and as Martha would say, it'll be a good thing. A new batch of people, new experiences, and a new life. My friends here don't need me, my family really doesn't need me. My mom said to me "I'm happy when you're happy," and I nearly cried. I know she's independent, but she loves me, and she's in the handful of people that do need me.

If I move away, I can become self-reliant and really build myself a legacy. The rut I'm in is showing a lot of light, and it is the most important light I've ever seen.

If you're reading this and thinking "Whoa, he's cutting me out of his life" or something like that, and you're actually shocked of this, then you're being silly. Of course there are people here that I know I'll know for the rest of my life, but others are old news. Old, silly news.

Ah well.

Oh, my name is cause I bought Clean & Clear moisturizer and it's great. lol

--Jam

I Didn't Steal Your Boyfriend

Howdy, night dwellers!

So it's just after 11 and I can't sleep. Well, that's not true. I could sleep, but I just don't feel like it! Weird!

I'm listening to a messed up version of Ashlee Simpson's "Boyfriend" and it's SO GOOD! I really didn't like her music at all in the past, but this song is so fun and catchy and would be awesome to dance to! If anyone has a good version of it, be sure to send it to me over MSN.

"Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, HA!" lol SO GREAT!

So I did my quota today on my novel. I'm so very impressed with myself. It's going in a different direction than I thought it would, but I've already received positive feedback (thanks to my greatest fan! I <3 U!) so that's encouraging.

I'm planning out my VJ Search tape and I am so excited I could barf. I was watching Leah interview Ashlee Simpson, and it looked like so much fun! I was just sitting there thinking "Wow, I could DO that!" and that's freaky! Maybe I'll actually make it!? I have to make sure I do a great tape so I get in and have the opportunity to wow the judge people.

For the video, I'm planning on doing a goofy introduction, saying the things I like and the reasons I should be a VJ, then I'm going up to the Pen Centre to interview random people are different musicky things. Should prove to be a grrreat video!

So yay! November is great!

--Jam is also great

All The Things I Am

I stole this from Liz's blog, and am gonna do it since I have nothing better to be doing (no work at work smells).

The rules:
Paste this to your journal.
Bold what is true.
Leave plain what is not.
Add something at the end.


1. I miss someone right now.
2. I watched more TV this year
3. I love olives.
4. I love sleeping.
5. I own a home.
6. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
7. I love to play video games.
8. I have done something illegal.
9. I've watched a porn movie.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
12. I like my handwriting.
13. I have acne-free skin.
14. I curse frequently.
15. I have changed a lot over the past year.
16. I have a hobby.
17. I have been to another country.
18. I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
19. I have been told that I am very smart. damn right
20. I have broken a bone.
21. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
22. I love rain.
23. I can be paranoid at times.
24. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
25. I need money right now.
26. I have tried sushi.
27. I have been to Las Vegas.
28. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
29. I was born in a country other than the USA.
30. I shave my legs.
31. I have a twin.
32. I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
33. I am good at styling other people's hair.
34. I am usually pessimistic.
35. I have mood swings.
36. I think prostitution should be legalized.
37. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
38. I have cheated on a significant other. - an EX S.O.
39. I have a hidden talent.
40. I have been sexually intimate with more than ten people.
41. I am currently single.
42. I have kissed someone of the same sex. mmm.. man taste lol
43. I enjoy talking on the phone.
44. I love to shop.
45. I can be classified as "ghetto"
46. I am obsessed with my blog.
47. I don't hate anyone. - but some people annoy me greatly
48. I am a good dancer
49. I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
50. I have a cell phone.
51. I watch MuchMusic on a daily basis.
52. I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
53. I have been in a real relationship.
54. I have rejected someone before.
55. I currently have a crush on someone.
56. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
57. I want to have children in the future.
58. I have changed a diaper.
59. I have had the cops called on me.
60. I bite my nails.
61. I am fatally allergic to something
62. I have a lot to learn.
63. I have dated someone 10 years (or more) older or younger than me.
64. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
65. I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
66. I have been rejected by someone.
67. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
68. I have avoided work to play with my blog. as we speak lol
69. I, as a child, learned "the difference between boys and girls" with a neighbor or friend.
70. I enjoy country music.
71. I love my friends.
72. I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
73. I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
74. I am a perfectionist.
75. I love Michael Jackson.
76. I have watched the television show "Spongebob Squarepants."
77. I have dated a close friend's ex.
78. I am content as of this moment.
79. I have gone scuba diving.
80. I have had a crush on somebody I have never met.
81. I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
82. I play a musical instrument.
83. I strongly dislike math.
84. I am procrastinating by filling out this list.
85. I own and use a library card.
86. I have been to Europe.
87. I have seen "The Lord of the Rings" trilogy. don't remind me
88. I have seen the television show "The O.C."
89. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
90. I like eating Ramen noodles.
91. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
92. I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
93. I consider myself to be a "nerd."
94. I am left handed.
95. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
97. I have had major surgery.
98. I have a pet.
99. I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
100. I own 100 CDs or more.
101. I am currently in my pajamas.
102. I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy.
103. I will try anything once.
104. I have tried a drug that is illegal
105. I am a cuddler.
106. I have one or more body parts that are asymmetrical.
107. I am a Republican
108. I am Catholic.
109. I am a college student.
110. I like to cook.
111. I like to vacuum.
112. I collect picture frames.
113. I get along with my parents.
114. I like Shakespeare.
115. I like to sing.
116. I practice a religion that is not considered "mainstream."
117. I have counted down the days until summer.
118. I have fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
119. I am, or was, pigeon-toed. what?
120. I have been to an anime convention.
121. I had a hard time paying attention at school.
122. I have a car.
123. I am an only child.
124. I work at a job that I enjoy.
125. I sleep a lot during the day.
126. I like the taste of blood.
127. I have swum in the ocean. swum eh?
128. I know how to shoot a gun.
129. I like being the center of attention.
130. I am currently pregnant.
131. I have watched "Sex and the City."
132. I am married.
133. I want to get married.
134. I have all my grandparents.
135. I am a huge fan of lists.
136. I have had my hair cut within the last week.
137. I enjoy jazz music.
138. I am a "morning person."
139. I currently regret something that I have done.
140. I have written a story outside of school.
141. I love Rammstein
142. cKy is the best band ever.
143. I admire Marilyn Manson as a photographic/cinematographic artist.
144. I love classical music.
145. I think pot should be legalized.
146. I must have ice in my water in order to drink it.
147. I have boxers with sunglass-wearing ducks.
148. I can pick things up with my toes.
149. I think Frank Sinatra is fantastic.
150. It is a triumph in my life to be healthy for a month.
151. I am currently not wearing shoes.
152. I am an uncle/aunt to more than one person.
153. I have unusually large/small feet.
154. I have read one or more Star Wars books.
155. I've gone skinny dipping by myself/with other people around at least once.
156. I have gotten in trouble for doing things with neon glow worm candies during truth or dare.
157. At this moment in time, I need to pee.
158. I don't get hangovers
159. I'm listening to music.
160. I have one or more tattoos.
161. I like baseball.
162. I've played poker in Las Vegas and won.
163. I am a member of a band or other musical performing group
164. I have been in an accident in which the vehicle I was in was totalled.
165. I have gone camping overnight in a VW Bus.
166. I have seen 'Buckaroo Banzai' more than 100 times.
167. I have been to more than five heavy metal concerts.
168. I have been embarassed in public.
169. I have slept in a bed with someone not of my immediate family.
170. I like wolves.
171. I love watching thunderstorms.
172. I often wish I was someone else.
173. I'm obsessed with drag queens.
174. Grunge is cool.
175. I've dated someone who was missing a limb.
176. I have never pulled an all-nighter
177. Zombie movies rock.
178. I like to sing karaoke.
179. I love kitties!
180. I have more than one scar.
181. I have been a radio personality.
182. I defended my PhD thesis while sick with pneumonia.
183. I have stood in my birthday suit atop a cliff overlooking the Johnstone Strait. Just because.
184. I love Disneyland!
185. I've been in a national magazine
186. I write kinky, smutty stories.
187. I like to try different pairings in my stories.
188. I can cook without recipes.
189a. I have danced on stage (not the kind that comes with a pole!).
189b. I have danced on stage (the kind that comes with a pole!)
190. I have been to Disney World more than 5 times in one year.
191. I always have to wear a watch.
192. I am adopted
193. I need a haircut.
194. I am angry at someone right now.
195. I haven't been baptized.
196. I actually like diet A&W root beer.
197. I actually should be at work/school/other obligation at this very moment
198. I have never been more in love than I am at this moment.
199. I have been the “other girl” in a relationship
200. I am not gay, but have partied in a gay bar.
201. I find myself thinking I'm in/going in to the wrong profession.
202. I often think that I'm the luckiest person in the world.
203. I know what Orangina is.

--Jam

Want Attention? Get Cancer!

One reason I'm glad I'm a nice person:

This.

--Jam

The Week End Of Me

Hey everyone!

So I'm finally back from my weekend of crazy running around Ontario. I accomplished a lot and had tons of fun, but needless to say, I am absolutely exhausted.

Saturday
Woke up fairly early and Leanne drove me to Brantford so that I could talk to Loretta about her upcoming wedding and her engagement to a guy I've never met. (If you want more details if I haven't ranted to you about that, then just let me know and I'll go on for an hour or so.) I had a long talk with her, and we had a lot of quality topics and concerns brought up, which was really needed. No one had talked to her about proper concerns and real issues, just either fake or blunt remarks. It was decided that I'd be her Master of Ceremonies at her huge 200-person reception, so I'm going down in a couple weeks to help her plan everything. It should actually be a lot of fun! I can't wait! I guess I'll have to think of some corny jokes, but that'll be so difficult because I'm not corny at all! ...!

That night I went to visit my Nana and we talked for hours and hours and it was so nice to have some real quality one-on-one time with her. Whenever I visit it's with mom and they talk about stuff that I could care less about, but when it's just the two of us, we talk and bitch and it's just so great. For those of you who don't know, my Nana, along with my Grandma, practically raised me because my dad was nonexistent in my life and my mom was working a lot of the time. I miss the times that I had with my grandmas, so it's so warming to just have a night to sit and reminisce.

Sunday
Early Sunday morning, after the wonderful time change, Mom drove me all the way to Thorold so that I could participate in the Mystery at Summers Drive, Part 2. Did some much needed karaoke and DDR beforehand (I miss Maximizer!) with Heidi and Athena's sister Vicky and it was SO much fun. I lub it!

The murder party went fairly well. The meal was to die for (haha die for!); Dustin's sister made it and apparantly she's amazing! Afterwards there were videos and stuff that happened (I was dying in a cellar until everyone found me!) and it was very creative. I was kind of confused for.. well, for most of it, but hopefully for the final mystery party in the winter, Dustin will have got it goin' a little smoother-like.

Monday
Duncan gave me a ride home and we actually had conversations the whole way home! I was so worried that it was gonna be awkward silence, but we talked about lots of crap so that's a good thing.

Got back to the house and carved two pumpkins. Made one into a reeeally cool cat (Lisa's favourite) and I made the other into Homestar Runner running (my favourite)! How cool is that? A Homestar jack-o-lantern!? I'm so great. I'll post pictures soon.

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So tomorrow I start writing my novel, which means I won't be posting nearly as much on Jam's Blog. I'll be posting my chapters on Jam's Novel Idea (there's a link in the sidebar too), and I'd really love it if you guys would read along if you have time and let me know what you think. I'll also be making my Much VJ Search audition tape, as well as preparing Loretta's reception and applying to schools, so November may be pretty scarce in the blog department. But never fear!

...that's all I got. Just never fear.

--Jam the Fearless